Weigh-in day and I was devastated to be told I'd gained half a pound. I know, talk about over-reacting - to come home and cry over a couple of hundred grams is pathetic, but it was a crappy end to a crappy day. I need to figure out how and why it happened.
When you're on maintenance you can eat around 6 extra points a day and not gain (although everyone does differ) and there is no way I ate that many, no way at all. I did sneak a couple of the boys crisps here and there but even when I do that I mark it on my tracker and I've not gone over any day by more than a couple of points, and that wasn't even every day! We had the Sisters' Meal on Friday and I didn't pig out but I wasn't strict, and ate a whole helping of banoffee pie ... but even then, I had 14.5 points which I'd saved for the meal, plus the theoretical 6 extra when maintaining!
I guess what upset me is being so close to how I want to look, and then having this step backward. I've never not lost, so to gain (let alone stay the same!) was really upsetting. It makes me afraid, I don't want to gain back the weight I lost.
My leader was really nice, she was telling me to just relax, that it might mean nothing, that there may be no reason at all why it's happened, it could be my body adjusting and doing its own thing. She said to just stay calm and see what the next week or two bring - yeah right, I'm off to Spain on Monday, I can just imagine what the next week or two will look like. It's made me feel crappy about the holiday as well, like I can't just enjoy eating out etc. I've been out to eat before and made wise choices and still lost that week, but this half a pound has freaked me out. But I don't want to turn into one of those women who are so boring to eat out with, so strict and obsessed. But I don't want to gain any more either!!
I know I'm overreacting, but I can't help it. I think it's the perfectionist in me: doing WW, must lose every single week. Not realistic, but there it is. My leader was saying that if it's even just a couple of ounces over last week's weight it will count it as half a pound as the scales only measure in half pounds, and it might not even be that much.
I need to just get over it and get real. Maybe I wouldn't be as upset if I hadn't had such a crappy day and pressured week.